Revel in Mirror, Yelena's ♥

Too much

2012-02-13T01:15:00.005+08:00

1 am in the morning and yes seriously I'm gonna post something up here after so long while, sorry peeps for dragging so long!

We heard what we both said just now, perhaps it's really too much for us, I can feel the tiredness in every single inches of my body, from inside out. You'll never understand how it feels, cause you'll never ever put a single drop of efforts to stand in my shoe, be at my side and see things in my way. You feel everything should goes in your way, under your control and yes, so far they are. But have you ever look clearly into faces of those who're standing aside, watching while you're treated like a king? How imbalance it was and how hard to forget the fact that you're actually the same like us, every single of us. When I say I was just passing the message up to you, was actually sending the one from the deep of my heart, it's really imbalance and I can feel it triple more than others. But you'll never get it, always expecting me and others to beg for you, perhaps I am the same as well, but at least, I'm working so hard here with my bare hand, not based on the fame and historical stories in the past. We're different in so many senses, asking for the word "sorry", it's easy to say or even shout it loud, but it's not about asking or getting a "sorry", but getting understanding and acceptance for being who I am. I am in the shit-est situation ever, where you can only work more, stressed more, pressured more than others, but there's not even a tiny space for you to complain, not even a single word. Let's talk about fairness now! Is this fair enough? Was expecting and hoping, at least there'll be someone who can share everything with you, who can understand you when you in need and accept you in the way you're. If you're asking someone who'll change because of you? Sorry, I would never be that person and you knew this since the day we met.

It's too much, all these are accumulating since don't-know-when ago, over-expected that I could get along with it, sincerely apologizing, I can't. Please, always remember this, things that you can do, I can do as well. Thinking of restricting me? Think of yourself at the first place please dude.

This is really too much, letting me to handle with your attitude and faces shown while I'm under pressured and burdened, wondering what's playing in your mind? Needing someone to take care of you for 24hours? Hoping I can be professional in multi-tasking but seriously I'm just an ordinary girl with no super power to handle more than my own problems, maybe I'm taking the wrong position, you're better in this perhaps? Just give me a word then I'll know what to do, since we'll never reach the equivalent point, there's someone who must be up, and down. All the best, thanks with sincerity.

Mr. Know It All2011-12-28T00:56:00.004+08:00

Mr. Know It AllWell you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at all ain't itAin't it something y'allWhen somebody tells you something about youThink that they know you more than you doSo you take it down, another pill to swallow
Mr. Bring Me DownWell you like to bring me down, don't youBut I ain't laying downBaby I ain't going downCan't nobody tell me how it's gonna beNobody's gonna make a fool out of meBaby you should know that I lead not follow
Oh you think that you know me, know methat's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely'Cause baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about me
You ain't got the right to tell meWhen and where to go, no right to tell meActing like you own me latelyYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about me
Mr. Play Your GamesOnly got yourself to blameWhen you want me back againBut I ain't falling back again'Cause I'm living my truth without your liesLet's be clear baby, this is goodbyeI ain't comin' back tomorrow
So what you've got the world at your feetAnd you know everything about everythingBut you don'tYou still think I'm coming back but baby you'll see
Mr. Know It All Well you you think you know it allBut you don't know a thing at allYeah baby you don't know a thing about meYou don't know a thing about me

原来

2011-11-08T00:53:00.001+08:00

原来，恋人最怕的不是受伤，而是对伤痛起了免疫。

因为这时候，说得再多，做得再多，爱的再多，都没用了，

没了自觉，怎么感受？

这一刻，割舍得最痛快，干脆，利落。

就让一切顺其自然 :)

我依然是我，一切曾经历过的事，是让我成长的累积，

从一来到这世上的那一刻起，就是学习的起步，

我是华人，我不后悔当个华人，

我学华文，我不后悔学会华文。

那是塑造今天的我的关键。

谢谢过去，珍惜当下，期待未来 :D

Bad day

2011-10-30T18:09:00.008+08:00

True happiness comes from within yourself, not from someone else. Don't make the mistake of waiting someone or something to come along and make you happy.

There's a point where you'll start to realize and understand, after things have passed in it's own way and time. Then you'll be glad, for making the right decisions, or vice versa. I'd made right and wrong both. Somehow making the wrong one makes me feel so guilty and it's killing me like seriously as the same thing keep on crossing over my mind again and again. Out of sudden I feel like every single human beings are selfish, greedy, self-centered, and it's impossible to get someone right. I'm not sure it's correct or not to think in this way. People hope to get something in return as reward after everything they've done, or maybe the initial motive is always to get something from someone. It's too hard and rare to get one that would never ask something from you, other than family and some of the really best and close friends I guess. I shouldn't trust anyone else that much again, not even a little bit I afraid cause when you wished for a small tiny dream and someone just blew it off, that's more hurt than spreading salts on wounds. That's why I love my family and besties that much, I know they'll always be the best and the ones who truly care for me. From here you'll know who'll be the one to stay forever by your side, and who will be just like anyone else dropping by awhile in your life with a passenger pass. Girls, let's get used to this with a smile on your face, life's always getting better when you're smiling :)

It's my mistakes for anticipating someone to replace someone else,

I should have known earlier, no one can be like you.

Ahh, silly me.

Changes

2011-10-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

Change is imminent.

That's what they always say. I can't deny this, it's just so true and yes I've changed, you've changed and we've changed. After so long time hiding how actually I feel and what I have in the deep side of mine, suddenly things just burst out like a leaked water pipe with thousands newton of pressure. Billions and millions of words will not help, not if you're not willing to listen and accept it, no matter good or bad one. I'm getting into more and more situations, nice and not both, and more and more burdens and pressure I can feel now, it's holding my breathe till I feel I could stop breathing anytime soon. It's not easy at all, too much to care, handle and balance. Still, I am standing here, willing to accept, listen and change after all the criticisms. I know that's what I supposed to do, and that's why I'm doing it, with the hope that you can understand and get some supports in return. But you'll never get it, no matter how many times I try. I should have known earlier before putting myself into all this troubles. And now I'm stuck. Hooray for me. Please, don't push me too hard to the end of corner cause you'll never know what I'll do to get escaped from the trap which minimizing my space to think and breath. It'll never be a judgement, not till you proved your words.

INTI University Day!

2011-10-08T20:27:00.004+08:00

Here's it! INTI University Day on 5th October 2011!

It's a great night with all the INTIans and Adventure Club committees!

Participated in Food Bazaar and Dance Party,

where instead of selling foods like others, we played games which is real fun game and I don't feel like revealing my secret weapon at here :D *devil me*

While for the Dance Party part, we danced for Flashmob session which had been practiced for so long time together with the rest of 150people! It's my very first time experience and flashmob is fun! You'll know how it feels when you actually dance in the crowd together with hundreds of people! We danced Bonama and Mr. Simple both songs from Super Junior. Guess our Student Affairs Officer, Florence loves SJ that much :P I was dancing at the first row! *Self-praising*

All photos are stolen from Kenny Ng's facebook profile, credits for him! :)

ADVs' partying! All in red with caps on! :) *I look cacat in this photo D:*

Yeah you're not wrong, it's Mizz Nina and her dance crew! The atmosphere was HOT when she's singing and dancing! Was at the first row again :]

That's all for INTI Uni Day, more photos in Chernnine's camera!

New semester

2011-10-01T15:58:00.006+08:00

I've started my last semester in Foundation with anticipating mood, and carrying it on with tiring and confusing mood. I'm getting involved into many things, well co-curriculum stuffs of course! Back to the field where I used to be, feel so great and familiar! At the same point, it's something harder than what we experienced previously, and that's what we call as grow and growth! People here do things differently and have a wider scope of view, there're much more for me to explore and learn I know. XP Somehow, my academic part is killing me. I'm having three subjects only for this semester but it's all calculation subjects! God and friends know I am NOT GOOD in calculating! I'm taking Business pathway though, still Accounts and Macroeconomics is killing me! And Maths as well! I'm gonna die this time.. seriously :X

Bless me please. :D

Dead :X

2011-09-10T18:56:00.001+08:00

Oh yes I am back to here and obviously it's a dusty dead blog which I don't even remember that I have one! Sorry people! Although I don't really know who I'm saying sorry to, still I can feel and see and smell that...yeah my page viewers is getting lesser and lesser!

Well, I'm not gonna blame any of you, of course no one would stay at a dead blog, not even clicking into it I guess *feel sad*

Anyhow...I think...*stick to the word I think XD* I will back to here often, as long as I have free time I should back to here and out-pour some stuffs here.

Just an information to inform, more coming up soon :D

Reflection.

2011-07-30T12:57:00.008+08:00

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you’ll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see, If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart and what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don’t know?
Must I pretend that i’m someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There’s a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal, what we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that i’m someone else for all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

When will my reflections show...who I am inside?
Yea, I'm so into the song lyrics.

Something named L

2011-05-16T20:51:00.005+08:00

" Love,

its like diving in the ocean without knowing its depth,

but the depth doesn't matter,

because deep down there there's something you need,

something important to you,

and you are willing to go all the way to win it.

I'll wait for mine,

I'll win my love,

I WILL WAIT. "
-Uncle Salmon-

The very first thing I get from him, with the ugly handwriting and zero artistic.

Still, I'm indulge in it :)

People

2011-05-15T14:05:00.008+08:00

Let's look around, and surprisingly you'll find out, we are always surrounded by people. Family, friends, classmates, colleagues or anyone else. Yupe, surrounded all the time. For you it might not a surprise, but who know people that you face days and nights are showing or hiding their true colors. I always assume that I know someone well, always, yes my own assumption. And it always end up as a wrong assumption. People that you know is not the one you really know. We show our smile when we need something from someone, being fake and asking in polite. But when it comes to situation, people run away and show nothing but selfishness. And again I realised the power of people, the strength when they are pulled together, and how fragile they are when they're alone. Exposing yourselves to the real world and observing around always help in developing your thinking and analysis skills, or, better understanding in how complicate the people outside your world are. Perhaps some distance might help, it always helps. I am tired of guessing what's people thinking inside so why don't just get myself a little bit more personal space, and stop caring about what's happening out there. Most importantly, get enough sleep to keep me look younger everyday?

That's me. Ciaos.

The Day Coming Home

2011-05-13T19:04:00.016+08:00

Here I am posting something after so long time, sorry friends, I'd been busy in my first semester, am still having campus life as university student living in Nilai. Oh yeap, I've completed my first sem and now proceeding to second one! Sounds so fast and most of my friends and buddies just started their first sem. Today I feel different...took public transports and just reached home, well of course different, he's not around and I was alone during the journey back, it was just half an hour still I feel weird and strange. It's the 1st week of my 2nd semester, and as what I used to, back to Kajang every weekends. While sitting in the bus, with the empty seat beside just looked through the window and listened to headphone, something I must have while travelling XD

Life in INTI, people I met and friend with is totally different than what I got in the past, I've been here for four months and yes, life at here is harder and more independent. Students run all the events and activities, lecturers teach but want you to be creative, awards will be given as long as you perform well, same equality between academic and activities. There are still much more for me to explore, I am glad I am here, with the opportunity given to study without being a burden to anyone. Thanks god and papa. :)

I promise I'll be nice and hardworking all the time kay?

Appreciating all I have, I am satisfied.

Home Sweet Home.

My DO and Don't List :)

2011-04-16T23:24:00.028+08:00

I DON'T FAKE to be someone else

I DON'T CHEAT myself and others

I DON'T PRETEND like I don't care

I DON'T POST something false

I DON'T TELL around what's the latest about me

I DON'T SHOW OFF with my newest bag

I DON'T PUBLISH my latest trend

I DON'T DREAM because of others' dreams

I DON'T GRAB attention from anyone

I DON'T TALK like people else than me

I LIVE as a normal human being

I DRINK when I feel thirsty

I EAT when I am hungry

I SING to listen to my own voice

I SPEAK to outpour my thoughts

I SHOW when I am angry

I LAUGH when I am happy

I SMILE to someone I know

I DREAM to see my future

I SLEEP to be sleeping beauty

I CRY when I can't take it anymore

I HIDE when I don't want anyone to see me

I BORN TO ENJOY MY LIFE, NOT YOURS.

Implementing One's Idea On Others Is Totally A Mistake. Ciaos.

Still, I FELL when it comes to him.

My Family

2011-03-06T21:44:00.008+08:00

Oopsie! Sorry for posting this up, I don't have other picture, no choice! :D

That's them, my family. Just forget about Sze Ern lah. Hehe!

Note: @Grandma's house, Broga.

And here's the oldest one :D

And also the cutest one of course! Dearest mummy!

Just back from dinner with them, and I had bravely volunteered myself to be the driver!
Not going back tonight as no transport and stupid uncle don't let me to take KTM.
Hehe. Somehow is always happy to spend time with them.
And I would like to spend more and more time with them :)
They're the best thing I've ever have,
forever will stand by my side and be my supporters whenever I need.
They're words and thoughts are more important than everything in the world,
for them I would do anything, just for them.
As I thought they will be just four of them,
here come another one, special yet annoying.
Ahah, just like me :D
Will appreciate you and what you've done for me.
I might look like stupid or dumbie, in fact I'm not! LOL. XD

Accept the fact, uncle.

Be by my side, that's all I want :)

Gosh. College.

2011-03-03T23:02:00.005+08:00

College? Oh no, should be University :)

How's life? Isn't life as student fun? Enjoying your university life?

That's the frequently asked questions by people about my university life.

At first I said it's fun and awesome! It is fun and awesome, as I got the chance to experience life in different way, and mostly in adult way, so indeed it is.

As time passed, it's not that fun anymore :(

Tests! Assignments! Take Home Quiz! Presentations! Class Attendence!

All these stupid things rush toward you at the same time and make you tension and pressure for quite some time! Urghh!

Headache at morning, afternoon, noon and night.

General Studies taught about time management, which I thought it was super boring and lame and useless.

But now, I guess I'm gonna take more time to study and do more research on this, it is important! Very!

What to do?

Just get use to it, soon you'll get your fun and awesomeness back :P

It's all about Valentine

2011-02-28T00:01:00.004+08:00

It's 14-2-2011, Monday's story,

It's memorable and special,

And it's all about Valentine,

My First Valentine :)

Let the pictures do the talking so my fingers could rest for more while!

I had no idea where the car was heading to as I was instructed to be prepared and someone gonna fetched me up at 5.30pm after my Monday class. Wondering and guessing along the way, yiks, I'm not from Negeri Sembilan eh, how come I'll know jek? Finally reached, it's somewhere near to Sepang Gold Coast and luckily I figured it out at halfway as I am born to be smart and intelligent! Actually, he promised to bring me here, and he did :)

The place was nice, facing beach and sea, he planned to watch sunset, but unfortunately it was cloudy evening, still everything's great.
P/S: It's not prepared by him kay, it's was already there for people to capture as it was Vanlentine Day!
I smiled like nerdy pervert. OMG. But I love that smile, cause it's true from inside out.
Had our dinner with white wine, but next time no need lah, I dislike wine eh! Yie, make me feel headache all the time! XD

Note: I am still that annoying and naughty! And I will still be in that way as that's who I am and that's who he likes XD

It's just a simple post with less words, as I am a lazy bug and words are not enough to describe everything about him and me. We might be special, but I am too dumb to feel the pressure, so it should be consider as good news for we both! SMILE :)

Just take it slow, as time will show.

Whole new start :)

2011-01-12T21:47:00.002+08:00

Officially started my college life on 10th of January 2011, how it feels?
Hmm, best word to describe, different!
Totally new and different, I met new friends and now learning new stuffs.
Am staying in the hostel and will travel back to Kajang every weekend.
Thought I will be superb happy and exciting, well, indeed :)
But who knows? I got homesick on the second day! Just slept for one night and started to miss mummy already! Called mum and guess what's the respond? "The two youngers miss you two too."
Aww....mummy, frankly, I miss you guys more :(
Messaged Sze Ern on Monday night. Haha, we both can't watch Criminal Minds which is our favourite tv series! Or I should say her favourite :D
We both moved out at the same time, and now I guess, experiencing the feeling.

Everything's fine at here, still get the chance to know new people and hang around the campus.
Luckily I am a Foundation student, other programmes like kinda, too packed. And stress? XD
Feel grateful to have good relationships with people around me. And feel great to know that many ex-YuHua students are studying in Inti! The best thing is, no much worries on transportation to back to home :D
Sharing room with a cute roommate, she's elder though, but acts like a cutie same-age. Haha :P
Love my room so much! Feel warm and sleepy once I step into my hostel room, ya I know, I'm a lazy bug.
And what we love to do is yamcha at mamak shop which nearby our campus till night time!
It's safe enough, no worry :) What can you expect? It's campus life!! :D

1-1-11 Start of New Year

2011-01-01T22:44:00.008+08:00

Oh la la, it's 1st of January of year 2011!

Can't believe time passed so fast and right now I'm already 18? Not officially yet but still, I am 18 now! *sweat

What else can I say? A new begining and a whole new start!

Have countdown with the gang at JiaLe's house, again, another memorable memories for all of us!

Turned on radio in car and maximised the volume so we could countdown with all Malaysians!

And we wished everyone by shouting and screaming to one another till 2am!! Ya! We acted like crazy last night! That's how we look like when we're gathered everytime XD

HuiQi stayed at my home till today's morning, we talked a lots about hers and mine till 4am in the morning. Realised my weaknesses and my strengths, thanks to Qi, good start for year 2011. I will change my bad habits and stop shopping that frequently :( It's gonna be hard though.

Yup! Nervous for 2011, gonna start everything differently!

Wish everyone good luck and stay happy in year 2011!

Do hope no matter where we go and no matter who leave, we'll still friends forever.

I still love you all, babes and dudes :)

After-SPM-Plan

2010-12-26T12:46:00.007+08:00

Ushh..my after-SPM-plan? Ruined! I planned lots of stuffs to do during SPM! But now, I don't have enough time to do all of it! I need more time! More and more! Luckily, dear sister and I 'successfully' went back to Grandpa's House at Johor, we took and changed buses till twilight! Haha, Twilight :)) Did some houseworks and just to prepare for CNY, the first statisfaction in my age of seventeen! We did something this time, so stop complaining! Muahh! And thanks to eldest sis, we have One day Tour at Singapore! Best decorations ever! Especially the night view, felt the warm of Christmas! And their Christmas carols! That makes me love Christmas till the maxx!
The HUGE Christmas tree at Orchard Road. Of course Orchard Road! The busiest and the noisiest street during Christmas!! Captured too much, find it out on Facebook :P Next year I'll back to Singapore again! Again for Christmas!
Oopss. Forgot to mention this part! We went to science centre for the CSI exhibition too! Whose idea?? Who else?! The future criminology/psycology/orwhatevershewanttobe so desperated for this! I won't publish her face at here so, chill :D Haha! Because of her I squeezed my brain into tomato juice to find clues and to solve the crimes, at the end, she's the happy one. Urghh.Fine. Here I am to wish you all Merry Christmas for year 2010 and Happy New Year of 2011! Let's welcome the year with joy and peace :) Smile to everyone you know or anyone pass by you side! You'll feel better in another new year! :))

Sign Of Freedom

2010-12-15T21:59:00.008+08:00

The sign of freedom :)

Hiked Broga Hill early in the morning just to watch sunrise with the gang,

it's meaningful to watch the rising of sun with my bare eyes.

After sunrise, means we're free! And it's time to have fun!

It symbolised a start of something,

where we going to face another world,

and finally could abandon the stress of SPM!

Wow...take a deep breath..

I'm gonna do everything! Everything I wish to do since years ago!

Get my driving license! A graduation trip! Shopping with girls!

Have a hairdo! Buys lots of stuffs!

Finally!!! SPM is over!

We have our freedom back! Let's have fun guys and girls!

SPM Freak-Me-Out!

And now, it's time to Laugh-Out Loud!

2010-12-13T19:44:00.001+08:00

Hmm...I am a little hardworking bee?

Nope. I'm not. Certainly sure.

Tomorrow will be the last paper.

These few days,

I watched movies, shop-ed with family, slept at days and nights,

but study BC? Nope. Not at all.

Instead of a hardworking bee, I think I'm a lazy bug XD

And generously I'll admit that! Haha!

Feel weird of some thing, my pinaform..

It's complicated,

to catch and throw at once.

duhh..

15th Nov 2010, 17th Birthday!

2010-12-09T22:06:00.012+08:00

Here I am to post up something huge, huge for me!
It's a belated birthday celebration, my apology for the late update.
But what can I say? I'm having SPM! SPM is more huge! XD

15th November of year 2010, finally I am officially seveenteen!
It was Monday and the first day of school break, yet all the form five students were compulsory to back to school to get slip peperiksaan.
Well, frankly I knew they must have planned something!
I was so sure! Of course the gang will never let go such a good chance to bully me!
Plusmore, it's a tradition in our gang, 17th Birthday, will be celebrated with friends, joys and surprises!
Night before 15th, Thivenesh and Ali were so nervous!
More nervous than I was! And I don't know why! I was threatened to bring towel and extra tees, my guess? Cream.......? *Yucks
But on that day, I knew why :)

Everything's fine at the morning, still sticked with the mushrooms, till after our rest time..The plan began!
When I walked into classroom, the room was fulled with 'foreigns' which are not from 5E, and I knew it's not a good sign!
They sang birthday song and I heard their claps, still, something's missing..
I saw 3 huge boxes at the end of the class, and TeeYang and GiapKai were sat between the boxes.
Seriously, I don't know what will coming up next.
They asked me to open one of the box, with curiousity and anxiety, I choosed the left one.
Slightly, gently walked near to it, and teared the tapes, it was fulled with newspaper! And guess what I found?? A watermelon!!!! Muahh! Of course watermelon, my favourite fruit! Found 17 jellies and 17 lolipops too!! Specially to represent my age!!
And then I was encouraged to move to the middle box, again with curios and anxious, I opened it and POP!!!! XiaoT poped out from the box with spray! And next, TeeYang and GiapKai joined in and I was sprayed like...colourful rainbow!! I should have known earlier! The boz was placed vertically and XiaoT was missing!!!! *UrghhStill, I needed to open the third one. Again, slowly, gently, and, I could felt my hand shaking after the pop-out box!
So..What's next? A horror doll head!!! What? Where did they get this?It was belong to Keat's mom! *Faint

And then, the gang wanted/ordered me to find and searched for something else inside the box.
Okay, I did and I found all the presents!! All inside the box!!! At the same time, birthday cake with candles without fire was brought in by Ooi Zai! Made my wish and blew candles. Finally, it's time to relax. Chill, have a piece of cake, thanked to everyone.

Night, celebrated with dearest family at Secreat Recipe,
nothing special yet meaningful. Mom brought me to Parkson and I was allowed to choose my very own present just a few days before my birthday. The siblings paid the bills! =)

You guys know what? Well, firstly I thought you guys were too tensioned and unluckily, my birthday was there for you guys to release SPM-stress! But now, what else can I say? I thank you guys so much, for giving me an unforgettable and unique 17th birthday! You guys are the best friends ever! Every single day of my seventeenth enriched by you guys! Thank you my friends!

原来，是习惯了

2010-11-08T15:06:00.010+08:00

今天在学校的心情，额外的复杂，也不知道为么。
但是，赫然发现，原来我有那么多的习惯了。
我习惯一大清早吃了妈妈的爱心早餐后就搭巴士上学去，
学校总是冷清清，一下车就会看到阿Thi的Kembara，
习惯性的，两只蘑鬼就会跑到我班，后头跟着阿Kai跟Auntie。
在班上哈拉个不停，直到有人逼迫性的把我们赶下楼，
进了礼堂，我们总会坐在同一个角落，开怀大笑，
顺便等着年纪最老的洁瑜与我们会和，
又习惯性的，和智君与家乐边玩边耍的爬上三楼去。

我习惯了在班外就瞭望我们八个的座位，看看又是谁缺席了，
几个月前，就早已习惯了Ali和Thi白痴的对话，
Keat和ChinQ的骂架对白，智君和阿Han说心事，还有Jason的呆比举动。
也习惯了他们暗地里做好约定，接下来要出卖谁，开包或Alluba谁，
Ali总会是男生们的目标，而Jason往往是最狼狈的那一个。
直到最近，大家开始用心了，都在做复习和练习题，
这时智君必成为了大家发文问题的对象，
而ChinQ，Ali，Jason和阿Thi，总趁着智君不注意时偷偷轮流下棋。

我习惯了下课钟声一响，就到课室外的走廊，直到家乐到了，
在浩荡荡的坐下楼，总会看见在新楼底下的奂漤和洁瑜，
再手挽着手，摇摆着少女时代的最新歌曲走向食堂去，
智君和洁瑜总爱吃正餐，尤其是炒面，智君爱加炸的食物，洁瑜爱加辣汁，
家乐和奂漤总爱买食堂安梯的食物，外加vitagen或水果，
我们总爱站在走廊旁，慢慢吃直到饱为止，
再缓缓的走到奂漤的课室外，再回自己的班。
但最近才觉得时间不够用，所以连下课都不去了，
但发现一个人留在班上，挺可怕的。

上了接下来那几节后，习惯了星期一和星期二偷偷早回家，
有时候阿Han和Jason也会陪我一起溜出去，
然后鬼鬼祟祟的冲下楼梯，祈求不会被抓到，
平时的话，一定会和大家情切的说声再见或拜拜再离开。
我习惯了今年的补习时间，星期二跟家乐，Ali，Shyuan，C.Cheong，
一起去Graviti补AddMath，都是在对面吃午餐，最近常去酷岛，
星期四也是跟他们一起补Chemistry，跟Mr.Lim拜师学Chemi。
星期五最爱到七喜或弯仔吃午餐，因为太多人，人群总会分开，
补习的前一个小时，大伙儿们总会在McDonald相聚，
总是玩的不亦乐乎，甚至忘我的整蛊对方，
最爱跟AuntieHwa和Lixuan去看衣服店，聊体谈彼此的心事，
再依依不舍的去Excel补Mr.Poon的Physics，班里的最后两排总是坐着我们这gang，
坐在我身旁的总会是奂漤，AuntieHwa或是LiXuan，
后边坐着的总是贞升，万豪，家伟或是哲翰。

今天校长宣布了毕业典礼将在下星期五举行，
顿时间，心情好奇怪，才发现能唱校歌的机会也不多了，
唱了11年的育华校歌，我想到我满头白发我都还会唱着，
五年的中学生涯，岂能说忘就忘？
在学校混着的日子说实在的，很舒服，很自在，
我知道这时候应该专心读书，但是时间不留人啊，
趁我记忆深刻，把回忆都写下来，因为我知道我是记性差的人。
今天提起了以往的种种趣事，发现从小学就熟悉的脸孔，
一个个开始离开单生的status了，有一点不习惯，
不知道为什么，可能习惯了一见面就斗嘴哈拉，但现在都不行了。

才发现，
原来，我有那么多的习惯。

Back To Basic

2010-11-04T15:03:00.005+08:00

Wondering why I changed my blog skin?

Don't ask why, me don't know either.

Back To Basic.

It's havent done yet, I'll finish it later.

Just realize every post of mine are quite long huh,

should start to post shorter one.

Have nothing to share actually,

just a random update, so nobody will complain again XD

Having sufferment caused by the upcoming SPM,

can't deny I'm stressed and tensioned now.

Gonna off for 2 months, it's time to study,

the time is ticking!

Grab your chance and show them we can!!

Everyday!

2010-10-11T12:41:00.010+08:00

Once in a lifetime
Means there's no second chance
So I believe that you and me
Should grab it while we can

Make it last forever
And never give it back
It's our turn and I'm loving where we're at
Because this moment's really all we have

Everyday
Of our lives,
Wanna find you there,
Wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
While we're young
And keep the faith

Everyday
From right now,
Gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand
Together we
Will celebrate,
Oh, everyday

They say that you should follow
And chase down what you dream,
But if you get lost and lose yourself
What does it really mean?

No matter where we're going,
It starts from where we are
There's more to life when we listen to our hearts
And because of you,
I've got the strength to start

We're taking it back,
We're doing it here
Together!

It's better like that,
And stronger now
Than ever!

We're not gonna lose
'Cause we get to choose
That's how it's gonna be!

Everyday, Live every day, Love everyday!

25 students, 5 cars :)

2010-10-09T18:23:00.007+08:00

Forgot to mention this part last night *oopps
Another hung out with friend after trial,
as celebration of course!
25 form5 students headed toward Jusco,
the largest gang ever, in the mature way some more,
they drove!
It's great to have friends who have licenses and cars both :)
Watched Detective Dee and we fulled the 2 rows,
it's a great movie and I like Andy Lau so much!
I think I should thanks to 'The Forth Kind' and 'Inception',
no one dare to sit beside me now!
Wondering why?
Just because I can't understood what's playing in that two movies!
Frankly, I understand lah!
Just...a little bit slower than you guys XD
But it doesn't mean I can't get it at all, and not every movie kay?
Had an awesome day with them especially when we're having lunch!
Poor XiaoThi, but AuntieHwa warned you right? Haa :P

It's always fun and joyful when we're together,
one of the best part in my life :D
Buaii =)

Trial's passed!

2010-10-08T22:29:00.012+08:00

Well, here I know should apologize again,
for CONSTANTLY being a lazy blogger,
and neglected my bloggie for so-ooo..
many days and months!
Bugs and spiders found the best place to stay and live, and that's my bloggie!
Haha :P

Just finished my SPM trial,
it's not 'hard' at all..that's why I'm mentally well-prepared to face the bla results on Wednesday!
By the way, thanks to friends and buddies,
who gave 'helps' when I sent the SOS sign,
muahh, the same-age will know what I'm talking about!

Just to share something precious here, trial is something horrible and terrifying, with the pimples on my forehead as proof, but I can feel the bonds between the family and friends now is stronger, just like what can be explain in Chemistry, it's not longer weak Van der Waals force but strong ionic bond! Weehee :P

Since it's trial and there's no where else to go than home, I faced them for longer time then normal days, and frankly, I love them so much, much more than words can describe.
Mummy knows it's hard to study, she bought 1 big package Nescafe cause she knows that's the best thing for her two daughters during examinations.
Mummy knows her cute daughter's room (mine) is hot, she placed mattress and pillows on the floor so her cute daughter could have a nap whenever she's tired.
Mummy knows she's not that easy to concentrate but she never scold, instead, bought her Brands, the essence of chicken just to make her daughter felt better.
Elder sister knows her cute sister is weak in calculation, she taught her Math although she's rushing in her college assignment.
Brother's having PMR together with her cute sister, they woke up in the midnights and studied together with the only light on in the house.
Youngest sister knows her siblings were concentrating, she decreased her watch-tv-show time and stopped to pick up fight *temporarily with her brother and sisters, but not after the exams end, I guess. No, I'm sure.
The friends and gangs gave supports and were sending each other the best info for all the time!

That's why I put the cute pic with 5 little tooth,
the members of the family of five,
or it can be the mushrooms too!
Too lots to share,
it's time to off, see you guys soon. :P

Finally, Tears Dropped

2010-08-10T16:24:00.012+08:00

Finally, tears dropped.

After so many years, months and days,

I still thought that I was strong,

or independent enough to live in my world,

in my way without caring what's happening out there, but then, finally, I realized I'm really not that strong to face everything.

Smiles, laughs and jokes,

are the ways I used to be to pretend myself,

to be the one that looks perfect,

and flawless in everything.

Perhaps genuineness and hardworking are not enough yet, people always ask for more,

no matter how hard I try,

no matter how tough to reach there.

I've won something that could make her proud,

something that I've tried for so long time,

and had grabbed every single chance,

to lessen her burden,

but people never satisfy,

you will ask for more,

and there will be no boundary,

that's the fact.

Everyone's stressed and pressured,

but releasing it out to others is not the best way.

Since when I have played role as a sponge?

Good in absorption, but not in releasion.

Things crowded in my mind for days or maybe months,

maybe I'm the one who think a lots,

or perhaps think too much.

Despite how tough life is,

I'm glad there's still a small little space,

reserved permanently in my deep core side, he will be there, supporting me,

sedating me, loving me,

will always stay in my dream,

and tell me how much he loves me,

and I want you to know,

I love you too, Daddy.

Tee Yang's Birthday Celebration

2010-08-07T21:51:00.006+08:00

weehee:D

the whole group picha =)

it's Hee Tee Yang's 17th Birthday and we celebrated it at The Garden,

well, the plan has changed suddenly though,

from Mid Valley to The Garden,

and the expenses doubled up indirectly,

but we still had a great time!

Actually it's always great time when we're together :)

*wink

Me and some of the gang reached school early in the morning,

and the main purpose was to attend the Chemistry lesson,

Hmm, it sound like I'm a hardworking student huh?

Anlah~ She pura-pura only lah XD

Haha, and when we're planning to walk out from the school gate,

the guys were spotted by the great Mr.XXX and the game of hide and seek began!! =D

And of course, the young won in the game^^

Had our breakfast at somewhere near to Pasar Kajang,

as usual, the Hong Kong's Chu Chang Fen XD *I dunno the exact name lah XD

Then we met up with others at the train station,

frankly I should admit that we really need some special techniques to squeeze into the fully-packed train!

The Girls- Jia, Hwa, Ran, Qi and Me have successfully squeezed ourselves into the Ladies Coach^^

Muaahh, it's a funny and hard time to stand straight without bending your legs!

And then we reached Mid Valley,

but then we headed toward The Garden for some reason and bought the RM23 movie tickets!

*wow, But it's quite worth for the movie SALT lah,

it's a nice movie and ANGELINA JOLIE is cool!

Should 'tabik' to her for her great stunt in this movie!

Haha! Had Subway's burger as snack, sharing with one another of course~

Then we moved to the Porridge Shop to have our lunch *have forgotten the shop's name
The appearance of the birthday cake surprised the Birthday Boy, and surprisingly I found that I'm quite talented in acting..or perhaps in bluffing XD

He's happy and that makes us happy too :)

Weehee :D

Happy 17th Birthday yar Tee Yang LouDao^^

Should share some good news here,

JieYee passed her driving test and will get the license soon!

Hey, promise that you will fetch us go gaigai so we could avoid from squeezing in the crowds kay?

I love you yar~*will start from the moment you fetch me =)

And the elder sister got a really good offer,

means she has much more choices to choose,

and I'm glad that I helped her,

hopefully she'll find the most suit way for her to be herself!

And the eldest sister and her family is coming back soon!

I miss the little two cuties so much!

Of course she'll plan her very own schedule, and it's always including me *wink

Weehee:D Smile Always.

Smiley :)

2010-07-18T18:44:00.004+08:00

Yup, smiley =)

Okay, I know I'm a lazy bug, for not constantly updating my bloggie..

and my blog has been frozen for so long time since the very last post! XD

Here I am to share some good news..

Was checked for PLKN's result for time and time via online and sms.. Friends know that I'm not wishing to be the lucky one..and luckily..I'd received messages with 'Maaf' as title for twice! Checked again via online and yup! I got the same answer! Can't deny that I'm so happy when I saw and received the news at first! Weeheehee..it doesn't mean that PLKN isn't fun at all, just I'm the one who keep on wanna avoid myself from the 'exposing' sunlight :) JiaLe and others must enjoy yourselves during the programme yar^^

.....

And we got a new member to join in our sweet family, it's our new puppy, KiMo!! We love that little cutie so much..including the oldest one who likes to complain about pets! He's snowy white and small in sized, quite similar to the younger sis's pet, Soso, the white cute rabbit! Captured lots of photos of Kimo and both of them, will post up later, soon. =P

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It's time to start do something, but I'm doing nothing =.= Okay, someone really should convince and guide or even order me to start do something useful, like watching movies =D Eclipse! Despicable Me! Toy Story 3! Inception! (Leonardo DiCarpio was acting in Inception!) Goshh...I'm out of control. And caught flu caused by the hot-cold weather, =_=

Just Smile and say Cheese to everyone :)

it's July 2010!

2010-07-09T21:51:00.005+08:00

It's July of year 2010 and it's nearer to the end of year 2010,

Feel much more free after AGM! No more last minute works and letters to type, name lists or forms to update, member's personal details to check and renew..

Huu...it feel so good to back to normal, a normal life like normal student should have,

errhmm yupe, I'm quite missing the time we argued and debated inside the room to reach the same dream =P

But it's so warm when our friendship keep on holding as tight as when we met in the beginning of the story..The greatest moment in my high school life!! I wish to keep it on and of course everyone's gonna appreciate the time we shared together^^ I love you guys and girls so much!!

The tuition gang, Shyuan, Jia, Ali and ME,

we have the same tuition classes since Jan and the process to reach and find foods are always unforgettable!!

The 5E boys, ChinQ, Keat, Thi and Jason,

We're watching video in the class during BC lesson,

the boys like to 'kai bao' and Alluba each other..

*just get used to it =)

the real and precious brotherhood XD

*hon is classified into the girls part, with me and chin^^

haha, they're donating their blood during the school's blood donation campaign,

many of the students wished to donate some including me but the terms and conditions are kicking us out far far away~

Muahaha, accompanied the two cousins who're going to attend wedding dinner after the day to shop at Times Square, glad to help them but we missed JiaDar and ChinPo..you guys really should have a look on Jyee's expression when she's wearing the short skirt and high heel for her very first time =D

*sorry Jyee for betraying you~ but we should share the fun things don't we? ^^

Smile and cheese =)

Well, I'd attended a camp organized by Inti International University at Nilai during June holiday, it was named Youth Empowerment Camp and trust me, it's so worth for the youths from all over Malaysia to spend 2days 1nights in this camp! All the activities and talks truly motivated and inspired the participants a lot! The camp is so fun and I met with many new friends from other states and area especially the Banting's gang^^. Yupe, is true that everyone's confusing and scaring right now, it's time to decide where to go and what should be taken to study further, which also means that we going to leave each other soon, I think I'll miss the gangs and Yu Hua friends so much, can't imagine what would happen to each of us after graduation T.T. Received the letters in white envelopes with a red symbol recently, lots of things and stuffs need to be consider and I'm headache-ing =X Oo Yay! Tomorrow will be the foot drill competition for dear SJ juniors, wish you guys all the best and remember that Yu Hua's spirit will always be aside with each of you! So do your best and make us proud!!! Add oil and gambateh bah!! :D

2010_June's Holiday's Diaries

2010-06-16T22:05:00.008+08:00

16 June 2010__The End Of Autumn, AGM

love this page the most! yupe, friendship forever my friends!

Dear pigu with the last piece of leaf fulled with AJKs signature~

Finally it's AGM,

and I got lots of words to say,

but will continue the story in more details next time,

Smile dudes and babes! Our story will never end =)

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14& 15 June 2010___Division Day 2010!!!

The last activity organized by AJK 09/10,

it's the first D'Day with the concept of sport day~

It's really unforgettable!

everyone enjoyed during the games and the smiles shown statisfied the AJK,

And sorry yar dear members, AJK won in all competitions but you guys still got the medals right? haha! Great Job AJK 09/10!

me and jyee~
me and zhichin~
Jiale and Huanran~
We captured a lots of photos,
but all the photos have been uploaded at Facebook~
it's a lovely memory with AJK, members and Mushrooms!

the dancers :)

We danced and performed for the last time,

and I'm glad that everyone like our show,

I like the hand-made accesories cause it's done by me mah!

Sorry if I've been too strict during dance practising,

but I'm really very happy for the feedbacks!

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10& 11 June 2010___2 Days Trip at Port Dickson with Eldest Sis and her family

Nice View, that's The Legend's Water Homes :D

Dear Sis with her cute family members, 1 man and 2 boys :)

2 King-sized beds for the whole family!

The inner swimming pool! Suit enough for couple =D

Ting Heng, the big nephew with his big luggage XD

His mum asked him to take off his shirt to capture on bed! XD Bad Sis..

Jin Heng, the small nephew with his mummy's hat and his sunshine smile =)

wow, the little gengster with his lolipop ^^ cutie Jin Heng~

Haha! That's his own creation and yes, he's so cute!

In the hotel's lobby,

the 2 little boys and their pretty aunt =)

Oh gosh! I heart this two little fellows so much!

And yupe I'll keep my promise and treat you two boys as good as your mummy did^^

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9 June 2010___Sunway One-Day Trip With the Gang

Ladies Coach =D

Love this system so much! And the symbols are in pink!

On the way to find food in Sunway!

The 3 girls! While waiting for foods in Ichiban Ramen~

Sweetie couple ^^

Skating Gang^^ *me, jia and ran went shopping at somewhere else XD

Me and the feminine Jyee, She's in pink!!

Me and Jia, we love the same style of shirts, pants and watches!

She's cute in this pic =) it's Me and Ran!

Love this one so much! Jyee's acting crazy again ==

Sorry for being rude yar, just for fun :D
And Yupe!!! It's fun and I love the time we laugh and stick to each other!
I love the mushrooms the most!!! :)

Asking nothing?

2010-06-08T01:00:00.005+08:00

Yeah. I am asking the reason for everything.

Cause I believe that things happen for their own reason and in their own way.

But things in my world happen disorderly now,

Am I the only one who's facing the problem?

Sometime taking the first step ain't easy at all,

especially when you need to do it alone.

Why I am the one who always need to be in the high-way life?

thanks for the expectations and praises, it really contributes a lot to a narrower mind of thinking,

or sometimes it wasn't my thinking at all!

No one knows what I feel when I was forced to face the true world,

earlier than the same-age teenager need to be,

some more in the way of self-settlement.

Ya, we do need a planning for our future,

but others always better than mine,

at least someone will plan for them and no much worry for that.

Kinda miserable now, after recalled my memories about roads I've taken to continue my life as a student, a daughter, a junior or a senior.

I like to ask question now, to my brain, inside myself,

keep on asking questions that have no answers returning back,

is it necessary to plan and grab every chance?

or I am the only one who is necessary to do these?

Do not hope to be mummy's burden anymore,

Hope to get a scholarship to further my study,

but not too fast like this, what I have is just a simple wish,

End my study life, at least as a degree holder.

But when people's enjoying, I'm vexing,

What kind of life is this?

THE BEST WORDS TO COMFORT MYSELF:

STOP THINKING SO MUCH LAH, STUPID. Done.

Holi holi in June!

2010-06-06T22:08:00.009+08:00

I took this photo while studying Chemistry,

*in the Midnight

and trust me, my brain system has been damaged by those formulae and blabla~

Ask the girls for proof!! stupid communications that keep on relating to something non-relating to science and logics!

Ha! I'm uncontrollable...sorry yar girls..^-^

Guys...it's holiday!!!

I'm happy? Exciting? Of course yes!!

it's time to release stress and have some fun!!

after having torments caused by examination...

should pamper myself and enjoy the holi!!

Just for the few days, no much free-time holi in June...

But at the moment we sticked to each other,

everything become invisible and everyone's special~

thanks to the ice shop opposite to our school~

The group's chit-chatting were unforgettable!
Mine and Jia's one,

We went to the same shop again with the gang,

Both days were nice and it's invaluable :)

haha! thanks to jyee for the offer to bring me home by her motorbike~

first experience and it's quite fun =)

she's steady what...but ah jyee arh...

don't speed up suddenly especially when crossing the bump lah..

I am scared when sitting behind you you know?

but still wanna thank you yar^^ haha..

It's a short and happy post...

Gonna be busy and more busy in this and next week..

but that's the last chance to get busy in sj stuffs..

So let's work harder and harder and harder!!

2010-05-22T22:55:00.005+08:00

STUDY MODE : ON

CURRENT STATUS : TIRED + BUSYING

P/S:- It's Mid-Year Exam and I'm studying till Mid-Nights!

Exhausting and Lack of Time!

But things happen in it's own way,

I'm delighting and Appreciating,

thanks to everything and everyone,

Boops!! I love you all!!

and I always do,

wish me all the best =)

14-5-2010 难忘，且有意义的一天

2010-05-16T22:49:00.006+08:00

这就是大家灿烂的笑容 =)

大家可不能够忘记这天，

难忘，且有意义的一天

可爱的许智扬^^

好久没用华语写部落格了，

犹豫了很久，

原本不想上来，

乖乖闭门念书的，

但是，

14-5-2010

太有意义了，

终于明白友谊的意义，朋友的重要。

过程我想不用写得太详细了，

家乐和奂漤在自己的部落格上都写了，

洁瑜的部落格也写着满满的歌词，

从我家，到麦当劳，

会合后，坐扬爸爸的车去智扬家探望他，

他的父母很用心，

还帮我们准备了晚餐，

而且是丰富的steamboat餐，

跟大家一起吃东西，

加上观赏羽球赛时的呼喊叫声，

很过瘾，超开心的

整个气氛好自在，

欢乐和笑声无所不在 :)

直到唱k的时候，

最后的15分钟，

魔力，朋友这两首歌打动了全部人，

大家都哭了，

连故作坚强的男生们的眼睛都红了。

亲情，友情，瞬间成了大家的珍惜

那个好动的许智扬，

成了大家连接在一起的一条管道

当时真的觉得我们拥有着真实的友谊

因为有着同样的目标，才会共同前进

大家不停的自我安慰，他不会有事的

边说边掉泪，但怎么可能不难过

在旁的人做不了什么

能做的只有鼓励他，帮他加油打气

他一定不会有事

只不过大家都说好想念他

接下来的三个星期

大家都会投入再考试里

假期的第一个礼拜将会忙着办最后一次的活动

一个月

不能见到他

他很坚强，忍着不落泪

但是，最后还是哭了

大家离开前在门外还帮他加油

上车后女生们都默默地在哭

他知道我们爱他

也知道他的家人多么的关心他

许智扬，你是幸福的

所以不能有事

快点回来育华中学

那个让我们从相认到相知的地方

那个有着一班朋友为你流泪的地方

加油，我们永远爱你

朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂

还有伤还有痛

还要走还有我

stopping, having break

2010-05-12T23:10:00.005+08:00

Let's have a break,

Let's stop for a while,

It's raining right now,

and I'm tired and exhausted,

Everything's gonna be okay,

Soon,

It's too much,

and too sudden,

Thanks for the comfort,

Perhaps I need time to go through this,

More time,

And I'll be alright.

this is my life

2010-05-10T20:33:00.004+08:00

That's my sweet home and cute family members.

They're cute, especially the oldest one.

But they're the most important thing in my life.

Something that I can't and won't lose,

no matter how or what happen in my life.

It's Mother's Day Celebration.

It's Simple, but unforgettable.

The idea of self-cook dinner had ruined.

Just a small cake and a bottle of sparkling,

with various types of fruits of course. That's all.

But when you look through the photos,

everyone's smiling happily.

Bad news keep on knocking people's brain,

Always. It always come after happiness gone.

Just like it's already fixed.

Now, finally, I think, I grown up more.

Not physically of course, but mentally.

Not too much, just that little bit.

Words are not going to describe everything.

Ups and Downs, Stands and Falls,

are necessary in life, that's the climb.

But I'm still holding on something,

so i won't lose myself.

And I'm still believe in something,

Fairy Tales with happy endings,

and The Faith of Love and Friendship.

My life ain't a fairy tale,

but I'll always waiting for the beautiful scene after the rain stops,

so i could see the rainbow,

and keep moving on in my way.

Be strong, be patient, and try to look through it from the other sides,

there's no right and wrong,

cause, This Is Life, My Life.

it's The Climb

2010-05-06T21:05:00.006+08:00

I can almost see it.

That dream I'm dreamin' but

There's a voice inside my head saying

you'll never reach it.

Every step I'm taking.

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction.

My faith is shakin.

But I, I gotta keep tryin.

Gotta keep my head held high.

There's always gonna be another mountain.

I'm always gonna wanna make it move.

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.

Ain't about how fast I get there.

Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.

It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing.

The chances I'm taking.

Sometimes might knock me down but

No I'm not breaking.

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah.

Just gotta keep going.

And I, I gotta be strong.

Just keep pushing on 'cause,

There's always gonna be another mountain.

I'm always gonna wanna make it move.

Always gonna be an uphill battle But

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.

Ain't about how fast I get there.

Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.

It's the climb.

Yeah-yeah

Keep on moving,

Keep climbing,

Keep the faith,

Baby.

It's all about,

It's all about the climb.

Keep your faith

-Keep My Faith-

blablabla

2010-04-22T14:03:00.003+08:00

I finished my PM project!!!

FINALLY.....and...

I'm the first one who hand up the project in our 38 gang!

whoa...first time for you guys to see a "hardworking" pigu right?

that's the silly expression from my face (>.<)

And the inner-notice board in the SJ room has changed,

and i'm extremely in love with it!

THE VILLAGE OF ST.JOHN..

what a great job our bahagian sosial have done^^

it's so cute with all the lovely colour!

captured a photo with jyee during last week activity~

I DIY-ed something recently,
and i love them so much~
at least they were 100% done by myself~

they're made specially for my room!

Claps for her hand-made products!! *wink
I love this the most!

that's hueyhuey's 4-in photos frame^^
haha..it's fun!

and again, thanks mummy for willing to buy the flowered-pattern fabric for me!!

Here i would like to express something,

that i've been keep it inside myself for days,

and sometimes it really wasn't about how you think,

because it's about other people,

who you can't control at all,

the way they speak, they laugh, their thoughts, their behaviors,

it's true when people says we shouldn't poke one's nose into something non of ur business,

because everyone have their own life and direction,

so just live in your own way and i will do the same thing as well,

stop lending a hand into my world and stop stopping me,

that's your mind, your thought! not mine,

just move forward together but in the different path,

there's no rule for anyone to obey on anyone,

don't influence me with your thoughts!

no matter what i eat, what i drink, what i do, what i wear, what i choose or where i go!!!

that's my privacy so just leave me alone when i need so!

it's ok if you say out my mistake,

but do not pick on the way i am or the way i want to be,

AND, i do not need a backstapper or a betrayer or a lier!

stop acting and pretending,

you are not that good and that's why I'm hating you more and more!

keep your stupid thinking with you and,

get lost if you wanna try to mess up my life!!

Huu....I'm getting mad soon!

Exam's coming, it's time to concentrate on study.

First & Second Weeks Of April

2010-04-14T14:55:00.013+08:00

I'm kinda of lazy now,

but still gonna upload these few weeks photos..

it's memorable stuffs in 2010,

so let the photos do the talking^^

9-4-2010 Chemistry Experiment's Day

Venue: Chemistry Lab

We are instructed to do 5 experiments in that day,

but we just did 4 and some of it failed....

it's all about the carbon compounds in Chapter 2,

and....the whole room smelled stinky and disgusting!!

10-4-2010 Area Sport Day

Venue: Kajang High School

It's a happy day with all the friends and members,

and the Spongebob Squarepants as the mascott too^^

we won few prizes, and well done for those who won and who participated..

thanks for take part in the games and I'm sure you guys enjoyed the day..

You guys delighted us a lot!!

That's the guys ^^V

And the Big Group Photo

The cute boy in the Spongebob box >.<

She's staring at someone...

while waiting for the BAsketball competition...

having chicken rice as lunch

that's the pose he did last year and frightened a guy from other school XD

She's my mummy-type bestie!

She's the problem sharer!

We are the crazy couple!

That's my black pearl tiger!

say cheese ^^

11-4-2010 Chung & Yee Birthday celebration

Venue: Home Sweet Home

Congratulations to him and her!!

It's his 15th birthday and her 13th birthday!!

10 and 11 of April respectively,

but we celebrated it together at 12'clock in the midnight by waken them up and scolded them for nothing!!

It's fun and special for the sisters and brother!!

hope they will love each other more..

and stop arguing for nothing!

that's my weekly diaries

THE END

Great Song, Great Meanings.

2010-04-07T20:43:00.015+08:00

Everybody needs inspiration

Everybody needs a soul

Beautiful melody, when the nights alone

Cause there is no guarantee

That this life is easy

❤

When my world is falling apart

when there is no light to break up the dark

That’s when I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore

and I can’t find my way home anymore

That’s when I look at you

 When I look at you

❤

I see forgiveness, I see the truth

You love me for who I am

 Like the stars hold the moon

Right there where they belong and I know

I’m not alone

❤

When my world is falling apart

when there is no light to break up the dark

That’s when I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore

and I can’t find my way home anymore

That’s when I look at you

❤

You appear just like a dream to me

Just like a line of school colors that

Cover me, All I need, Every breath that I breathe

Don’t you know you’re beautiful

❤

When the waves are flooding the shore

and I can’t find my way home anymore

That’s when I look at you I look at you

❤ You appear just like a dream to me ❤

it's my life, it's my world

2010-04-03T23:08:00.005+08:00

The past few days inspired me.

Something about life.

There are various type of people,

living in this world

everywhere

anywhere around us.

_______________________________

Someone have double personalities.

Someone have the natural one.

Someone will concentrate on people's business.

Someone concentrate on their own work.

Someone treat themselves the best.

Someone treat everyone as well as they can.

Someone request others to keep quiet and listen to them.

Someone offer themselves to listen.

Someone influence others to follow in their way.

Someone willing to try in your way.

Someone listen to your secret and spread to others.

Someone keep your secret in the deep core of the heart.

Someone blame on others when there's a mistake.

Someone meditate and make confession on it.

Someone smile at you to get something from it.

Someone smile at you at every second to make you feel comfortable.

Someone wish to be famous when making friend.

Someone wish to get a true one from the millions.

Someone make declaration to get help whenever they're in trouble.

Someone will try their best to solve it without causing any trouble to others.

Someone satirize others when someone is better.

Someone hope to learn from others to make themselves better.

Someone feel jealousy when they can't reach the best.

Someone wish to do harder next time to reach higher.

Someone need company to show that they're not alone.

Someone offer themselves to accompany others so they both won't be alone.

Someone point their finger on others.

Someone yield and say sorry for it.

Someone feel hate to others for not giving the best treat.

Someone feel guilty for not treating others in the best.

Someone feel angry when others neglected them.

Someone will care more about others so they will feel their presences.

_______________________________

The world is too big for us to live alone.

It will be a good try to tolerate among each other.

Although it will be hard.

But it is a must.

I used to be the one who pointed finger on others,

and blamed on people else when there's a mistake.

And the result were sucks.

You will lose more than what you get.

And now, I found much more things that are more valuable.

Than what I was chasing for.

Sometimes taking a break or leave will be another good solution.

It doesn't means escape from the reality.

Just

There are too much choices to choose.

And too much decisions to make.

And too many things to chase.

And too much rules to obey.

Life ain't easy at all.

Especially the relationship between human.

But there're always a step for us to move on.

Either forward, or backward.

That's all.

*it's my life, my world, my article, my words

im back^^

2010-03-24T23:37:00.005+08:00

hohohoho~~~
welcome the returning of the great lazy bumpy silly huey!!!
*applause*
hehe...
hai guys~
long time no see you guys jor~
and i'm sure that you guys miss me so much right?
haha! im 100% sure of it~
please refer to the right hand side of the page and look carefully in the cbox there~
three different alarms rang and keep on rushing me to update my bloggie~
and 1 of it rang twice timm~ ><

shopping with dear crazy sister at midvalley..
and she is crazy when spending money on clothes and facial stuffs!!
ya..i know she saved it since long time ago..
but actually..i'm jealous of her lah!
straightly walked inside to PDI, Padini and others stores and picked up T-SHIRT without caring the price~
she's crazy..anyway..
hopefully her wish to enrol in singapore can come true soon~ *asap*
and get her car license before she leave!!!
so i would enjoy the joyful of shopping without fearing of transport problem^^

spent another day with my clumsy bro and we were out of control on that day!
watched 3 movies at the same day *continuously*
haha~Percy Jackson was the best movie!!
although i'm late of watching it~
and another 2movies- Alice in the Wonderland*3D motion and Under the Moutain.
both are nice movies but i love Percy the most! Handsome betul^^

About my lovely sweet room...
i'd moved to sister's room and i loved it so much!!!
didn't spend too lot of money on it cause dear mummy sponsor some~
thanks for kakak for helping me in sticking the wallpapers!
and thanks mummy a lot for buying me the new wadrobe and make-up table^^
*paiseh..i cincai translate it*

*messy room*

really heart my room~~ now even in school i'll miss my room and bed!
wanna back to home straight after school and sleep on my pinky bed^^
but it is still a messy room....
it's hard to keep my room in tidy without kakak's helps~

hehe^^
that's all for my monthly report^^
p/S: Basketball championship coming soon!!!

3-3-2010 it's wednesday^^

2010-03-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

haha...

actually i got nothing to write d...

but suddenly realized that today's date was nice!

3-3-2010 and it is wednesday~~

*pronounce it in chinese..

haha~ i know...i'm lame^^

hmm...my recent news...nothing..

maybe there're some news..

but it seemed nothing to me..

maybe i should be angry or sad or dissappointed..

but not anymore, and dunnoe why..

maybe i had adapted of these kind of feels..

maybe it is a good news, or a bad want?

whatever lah~ I'm tired of predicting what's going to happen up next~

so why don't we just stop doing things carefully?

haha~ it's easy say but it's impossible to do it~

so guys, forget about it ><

form 4 juniors did their pesta..

quite good for them..and we did enjoyed a lot during the day? don't we?

haha! and thanks a lot for all the juniors~

for 'pushing' us to the stage and encored for GEE~

2 normal girls with 4 abnormal gays~~

and the feedbacks are...funny dance=_=

ohh ya!!! exam's coming!!!

seriously...i've self-prepared...

to sacrifice myself in the exam's war!

cause i know...sure i'm dying...

without any study and prepare..

oO..dear books...they've been neglected in the bookshelf for ages~

and my dear honey darling babe god..

please bless me so i won't die ugly-ly.........

thanks and i love you^^

remember today's date..

3/3/2010 Wednesday^^

.

2010-02-23T23:36:00.008+08:00

在爱情里

男人的想太多往往是一种包袱

女人的想太多往往是一种直觉

❤

在亲情里

男人的想太多往往是一种责任

女人的想太多往往是一种天性

❤

在友情里

男人的想太多往往是一种位置

女人的想太多往往是一种敏感

❤

在生活里

男人的想太多往往是一种必需

女人的想太多往往是一种不安

❤

想太多

有时是一种幸福有时则是一种负累

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

最近发生的事，好突如其来

但是都发生在身边人的身上

无论是好事坏

大家确实有被影响了那么一点点

只想跟你们说

不要想太多

也该对自己说一样的话

很多时候

让事情顺其自然的发生

总比勉强来的好

情人间的分分合合

亲人间的聚聚散散

都不在掌握之中的

的确

会羡慕

会嫉妒

别人那风调雨顺

无忧无虑

被别人捧在手心上

又美丽奢侈的生活

但是

要求越高

想得越多

希望真的可以不要想太多

也希望身旁人

能够找到幸福❤

12-02-2010

2010-02-12T01:38:00.007+08:00

haihai..

it's 1.40am in the morning..

and today's main character~~

Ali Baba Ali Muhamad Wasil Ong^^

it's his 17th birthday!!

but unfortunately...im leaving soon..

at 8.30am by train back to Johor to meet with dear sister~

huhh...sure he will feel uncomfortable cause pigu is missing^^

haha...dear ali..although I'm not around during ur big day..

dont miss me too much kay?

Gonna celebrate my CNY at Kukup, Johor...as usual...

hmm...valentine's fall in the same date with CNY Oo..

nvm d...wish Happy Single Valentine for those singles and me^^

and wishes to all laopos..friends..babes and zaizai~

Gambate in the jogathon Oo!!

If possible...bring back more hampers so we can share it 2gether as CNY present k?

feel kinda weird when others going to take part in jogathon while im going to absent..

we've joined in for so many years O...

but i think it's ok d...coz dear sis said gonna bring us to have a shop at City Square straight after we arrived at train station^^

but here's the problem....i'm lack of money lah~~~

the only wish from me...money appear on my bed next to me after i wake up in tomorrow morning><

anyway....

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR❤

HAPPY VALENTINE ❤❤❤

I want $$$$$$$

*The Shopaholic is getting Crazy*

First Week Of Feb~~

2010-02-07T23:05:00.016+08:00

Whoa..

it's hard to go through everything right now..

and seriously, this week was the most unforgettable week for 2010~

everything was out of control..

happiness and angriness...

messed up everything~

things happen out of expect and plan..

but what can we expect???

it's time show u guys the recent photos..

1/2/2010-The Surprise Earlier Birthday Celebration^^

having 'jungle trekking'^^

we went in to her house from the back door and she was so surprised when saw us came in!^^
here's the birthday girl with her wrapped 'presents'~

that's her presents^^ pampers+padding+toilet paper+putting+CalvinKlein underwear!!

2/2/2010-The 5F's Froggie Operation Day+Shyuan's Birthday

here's the group picture in class 5F^^

had a lot of fun with them during the whole process~

yupee..the poor giant froggie~

let's make comparison with the 5E's froggie...

please look at below there...
Qiang Qiang~ it is so cute right? haha^^
that's the true birthday present for Shyuan lah~

a white dress and a beg..

SHyuan..Happy 17th birthday yar^^

3-5/2/2010-The Shooting Days~

the overall picha :) *i look weird

*the Group 1 picture^^

hmm..didn't capture many photos by using my hp..

but there're quite a lot at auntie there..

haha...actually im newbie in club photography~

new experience^^

hello....i know how 2capture d loh~ i really know d leh!!

thanks to group 1 members^^

especially to auntie+ying+hock+karfei~

they're the best friends and laughter maker in g1~

4-2-2010-The NewBorn Mushroom

captured a photo before left school..

haha..that's the look before having haircuts~

now...the new mushrooms is borned^^

cutee hibiscus team~~

6-7/2/2010

I'll post this up later...

it's too much and hard to express~

everything was just too sudden and all of us are trying to switch back to our normal status~

tired++++ it's time to rest...

updating

2010-01-31T23:46:00.003+08:00

okk...
here im..updating my blog..
hmm...feel kinda emo+moody for these few days
previously, maybe i'll say dunno why it's happening..
but now, i have been trained to find out the reason of why it is happening.
*what a great job our dear peng has done [-_-]
too many things happen at once.
no matter on family, friends, or myself.
tried to be generous. but i failed to do so.
tried to be stingy, again, i failed again.
maybe that's what's the adults told us before.
the "extreme" period.
im not very sure about others.
at least im 100% sure that im quite "peak chek" in this few days.
dark circles around my beautiful eyes.
pimples around my forehead.
and oily surface on my nose.
Aaawh!!!! peak chek+++

please...forgive me when i am unstoppable to do something stupid.
my brain was out-of-control. *for a while*
and my mood..like to change from A to B, and than B to C.
im passing through those stages. and its getting tougher.
I'm trying, growing and learning.
from the mistakes that i've done.

so i won't redo it anymore.

LOVE-FRIENDSHIP-SELF RESPONSIBILITY
she's the mad shopaholic *cheers ^0^

Life :)

2010-01-14T00:50:00.007+08:00

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets ,

So love the people who treat you right , forget about the one who don't .

And believe that everything happen for a reason .

If you get a change, Take it ; If it changes your life, Let it .

Nobody said it would be easy , just that it would be worth it .

Copied from other bloggie :> I'm not the author XD

Hmm..feel better now. Finally.

Hoo. gt back my strength to continue everything.

studies. tuition. homeworks. co-curriculum.

dear sister came back last week.

and it seems like she's having a good impression on her job.

that's the best.

for me,

it's hard to live with sadness and lies.

but i learnt something from her.

whenever you feel uncomfortable of anything strange,

that's the time you're growing.

Smile =) That's the way life should be.

Again

2010-01-09T22:43:00.004+08:00

Again.

Jobs, Duties, Responsibilities...

crowding in our heart and mind..again.

just like what we had learnt and done before..

yeah. the flashback is starting. again.

Guys. I'm so sorry. Especially to dear pengerusi.

I really mean it..

Dunno why. I was so...confused?

first in my life. After 16+ years.

I thought i was the only one.

facing all the stresses and stupid talks with adults.

Well it seems like there are more 17 years old teenagers out there are facing the problem with mine.

At least i'm not alone.

But maybe mine will be more serious.

i'm "creating" stress. not releasing it.

Yeah, i realized it after talked with biby and jia.

Sorry. for showing the "unwilling" face.

Maybe I have no more strength to continue all those stuffs.

Maybe, I need to be tougher and stronger.

I thought i'm tough enough.

But now. I knew that was a false statement.

6 more months to go. To stop doing all those jobs.

10 more months to go. To face the sucks EXAM.

1 more year to go. To set my soul free.

But we never imagine how's life will be, after graduation.

It was just the first week of 2010, but now..

I'm collapsing..don't ask for my recent situation.

It's sucks. And i'll face it by my own.

cause we should prepare to face the real world out there. soon.

somewhere nobody will help you for nothing.

Ahuh. My brain has changed the way to think.

Hopefully......

it will be a better way.

EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT?

2010-01-07T20:22:00.003+08:00

不知道为什么..最近的心情起伏蛮大..
动不动就发脾气，有突然间想骂人的冲动，
觉得自己变了..
自己控制不住脑袋与心态..
明明理智告诉自己不是那样的..
但心却往往不肯相信..好像想太多了..
应该是因为姐走了..虽然每星期会回来,
虽然只不过是份临时工..
但是..不知道为什么..很不舍得..
才发现,原来自己是那么依赖她...
才发现,事实真的是那样..残酷
虽然跟她每次都吵架+打架+抢东西~
但是每次有心事都是她开导我的...
她的愿望,比谁都简单,比谁都容易满足..
但是周围的人..为什么一直不停的逼迫?
明明都不是她要的科系..
又不是要出国留学..
那么简单,但是长辈们没人赞同...
那天表哥来载她,开车离开后..
不懂做么,开始掉眼泪了..
但是不能让家里人知道..
她只说,不能怪别人,因为她是长女..
我跟她差不了多少的..
但是...我的想象力更丰富><
比老姐更爱幻想(>w<)
所以毕业后..我死定了~

最近眼眶很容易出汗~
可能压力又回来找我了..
现在虽然是简单到不能再简单的工作..
但却那么的力不从心...
又开始那种快要累死掉了的感觉~
才开学的第一个礼拜就想那么多..
接下来还是这样的话，我完蛋了~
祝福我..不要想太多^^

2010❤❤❤SeNioR YeaR

2010-01-01T21:26:00.006+08:00

2010年啦~大家又长大一岁了。。

好不舍。。又要开始忙碌的生活了。。

虽然假期也是一样的忙，

但明年，压力又要增加咯。。

先记载下2009年12月做过什么~

*筹备camp

*顺利的举办camp^^

*检讨会

*在巴士上弄不见电话

*跟班上和其他白痴去sunway lagoon

*乱骂ms.Ah Lian

*jusco看戏+form5 farewell party

*迷上花样男子（特别是Gu Jun Pyo^^)

*帮八婆打转班信

*换电话=）

*拿新notebook~~

*帮相机换新衣 :>

*庆功宴+倒数

哈哈~才发现真的很久没上来了。。

2009，真得很忙。。

但是，很充实。。没白忙><

过得真快啊~快开学了。。

2010，我们当大学姐大学长了咧~

嘿嘿，前辈比较好听^^

SPM咯，又要努力了。。

好久没有松懈了咧~

一年后的我们，还会跟现在一样吗？

会成长更多吧。。。

2010_____SENIOR YEAR

LAST YEAR AT YU HUA..

no matter where we going..

it start from we are..

appreciate what you have..

Count Down___2010^^

2010-01-01T01:29:00.004+08:00

31-12-2009

今天约好了st.john的朋友们要做庆功宴~

一大早就起床了。。

先去学校training..

顺便带妹妹去学校参加新生入学日。。

过后就去TMnet弄上网的东西~

弄了很久。。过后就去奂漤家准备东西~
到她家后就开始煮东西咯。。

炒米粉+煎鸡蛋+炒饭~

没看过在厨房里乱喊乱叫的一群女生吧？

哈哈。。连她婆婆都看不过眼~

大家陆陆续续的到来啦~但是哦。。

蛮多人不能来的。。就连小迪也是~

他生病了。。但是依然有献信息给大家~

还有慧绮打来的电话~

如果大家都在那该多好。。。

然后就一直bbq~超级饱满！！

真的不肥都假！~死定了。。。

然后大家就神神秘秘地把灯关掉~

然后就帮sze yin庆祝生日啦^^

嘿嘿~意想不到吧?家伟过后也过来了~

过后大家就坐在一旁看表演的video+谈天。。

很快就到11。35pm了~

突然不懂那个白痴讲要上山看夜景+倒数~

有的同意，有的不同意~拉拉扯扯下。。

11。45pm了咯！！然后几个敢死队的（包括我啦）

突然就跑上半山去~很像半夜跑jogathon咯><

想到山顶的。。但是来不及了。。就等倒数咯~

10++的白痴们,站在栏杆上乱喊乱叫！

哈哈。。然后大家一起倒数看烟花~

很特别，也很难忘~

我们有许愿。。希望今年一切更顺利^^

然后又走回奂漤家，玩仙女棒~

感觉又回到小时候那样咧~

嘿嘿嘿~玩了一下下后妈咪就来载我了~

回到家，姐+弟好兴奋~

终于能上网啦！之前能上网是在mcd上的咯~

可怜到。。哈哈^^

今天又是难忘的一天。。

总觉得要记得的东西好多~

但那些不是FORMULA或什么TABLE~

是属于我们的回忆，我们的友谊。。

原来。。大家一起经历了那么多事。。

无论是公事也好，私事也罢~

时间过得真的好快哦~尤其是今年。。

不对！是去年2009年。。

不懂怎么形容，但是CAMP后的我们，

真的成长了，无论别人怎么看。。

我们知道，我们已用尽全力~

完成当初约定好的梦想。。

接下来，也要加油啊^^

Autumn D'Rumble Camp!! yeah^^

2009-12-27T16:48:00.003+08:00

Autumn D'Rumble Camp...
ended up with smiles and happiness...
fulled with memories and experinces...
it's only a fun camp for 4 days 3 nights..
but it used up 3 months to succeed..
we learnt a lot..the way to express and accept..
the way to speak and listen...
the way to try and solve...
yes...all of us grown up more...
maybe it was just a little change..
but it gonna affect the future a lot...
miss the camp a lot...
wanna thanks many people...
but seems many ppl did it..
then maybe i should let my fingers rest for a while^^
haha^^ luckily the feedbacks of GEE were positive~
our 1st different kind of dance~
it's hard to learn and teach the movements..
but we felt good when we were dancing on the "moving" stage right?
haha^^ full of enjoyment and joy...

love it!!! Autumn D'Runble Succeed Successfully^^

Sweet 16th Birthday Celebration^^

2009-11-26T13:47:00.004+08:00

终于满十六岁啦~
今年2009的生日。。真得很难忘。。
在这里跟大家分享下吧^^

14-11-2009 星期六
aktivity照常进行咯~~
但是可怜的我们几个。。
就去area meeting咯~
他们有开会，但是我们赶不回去。。
但是听说气氛不是很好的。。
然后小迪不懂做么脸色好难看~
一直摆臭脸的。。
原本想就这样搭巴士回家。。
但是下雨了，男生就讲要去吃东西。。
就跟着去咯。。傻傻的坐在一边看他们吃东西~
然后松杰跟我讲一点关于开会的东西..
那时候不懂做么激动到乱骂人~
过后他们就讲要换位子去外面坐~
一出去就看到写着Pigu的蛋糕。。。
开始飙泪了咯~看着一大班的男生们。。
唯一的女生被包在中间。。
一股感动冲上大脑。。谢谢你们的蛋糕。。
好庆幸有大家。。原来小迪演戏罢了~
camp要到了。。好忙碌~
大家要加油哦！！！
很期待，也很珍惜。。。
希望我们的友谊长长久久^^

15-11-2009。。星期日。。
几天前就跟auntie约好了要庆祝生日的~
星期日早上九点就在火车站等咯。。
虽然本小姐是寿星，但是我不懂有谁去的咯~
原本以为会很多人的。。因为一直看到他们在班上讲悄悄话~
在火车站的时候，就只看到auntie,OoiZai,家伟还有哲翰。。
其实有一点点小失望的~还以为班上那几个白痴会来。。
但是，他们星期日都肯出来帮我过生日。。
已经很感动了。。
我们坐船去the mines先~
虽然有点奢侈，但是都不是我出钱~哈哈><
过后就去买戏票，约好了要看2012的。。
但是哦。。岂有此理~竟然多人到~~~
只好放弃咯~然后auntiet就讲要看the fourth kind咯~
先去吃午餐~去吃burger..
忘记什么店了~署条超好吃！
auntie很奇怪咯~一直吵着要看美少女竞赛~
然后就去看戏，本来以为会好看的。。
讲真的啦..我看不懂咯~乱到死。。
差点睡着掉。。过后就去唱k咯~~
他们讲book好了的。。但是不用跟counter讲的哦~
就傻傻跟进去咯。。他们叫我先进。。
里面很暗的，一推门。。那五个白痴突然跳出来！
外加可爱的cheok一个~然后唱生日歌。。
很感动。。真得很感动咯。。。
但是昨天哭过了，今天不能哭！！
然后就许愿切蛋糕。。臭ali+cheok!!
弄到我的脸很够力肮脏~~
原来大家都有准备礼物的。。
auntie+xuan+ying送bag^^
班上的白痴们买了香香的香水~~
还有家伟他们送的小礼服...
很喜欢。。。。谢谢你们。。
过后全部就乱唱歌~蛮high的。。
真的，有史以来最难忘的生日。。
其实就算没有礼物，也很开心了。。
超级难忘的16岁生日，与你们的回忆。。
谢谢。。。爱死你们了<3

L.O.V.E

2009-10-12T20:29:00.005+08:00

Things always happen unexpectedly..

and now...I'm frustrating..again...

thinking of something...something named as LOVE..

it seems like a simple word...

but it's hard to get the real meaning..

why girls always get hurt from it?

why boys always can't protect girls from dropping tears?

LOVE..should be something precious and valuable..

should be the way to show your care...

but girls get hurt from it...love from a boy

now, thousands and millions of girls are fearing of LOVE..

The only wish from a simple girl is..

a simple Love from a simple boy..

glory and money...

mean nothing at all comparing to a true love..

please..don't give any promises and hopes...

it will be more hurt than having nothing...

The only dream from a simple girl is...

holds a boy's hand which she loves the most..

having their own happy and grateful life..

and the prince hugs his princess...

and waltz in the night with stars and moon..

he kisses her lips and says the words..I LOVE YOU..

The only thing a princess wants from a prince is..

An Everlasting LOVE...

新加坡？

2009-10-12T12:07:00.003+08:00

嘿嘿嘿~

刚刚接到一通电话。。

是打进我手机的。。

以下是我跟对方莫名的对白^^

他 :"May I speak to Pin Huey?"

我 :"Well, Yes I'm, what can I help you?"

他 :"Ok, I'm from Ministry of Education of Singapore, are you studying in secondary school in Singapore?"

我 :"HUH? May I beg you pardon?"

*除了“secondary school in Singapore以外”，其他字根本就听不到咯~

他 :" Are you studying in XXXX XXX Secondary School in Singapore?"

*拍谢~忘记是什么学校了...

我 :" Erm..sorry, can you speak again? I can't hear your voice clearly.."

*虾米？讲得比火车还快，我怎知道你在说什么嘛！！

他 :"Well, you applied for scholarship in last year right?"

我 :"Ya..........."

他 :"So you studying in XXXX XXX Secondary School right now?"

我 :"Oo....NOPE~"

他 :"*FINALLY* It's OK...thank you.."

哈哈。。可怜的他~

跟他哈啦了这么久~不过是问我到底有没有在新加坡念书~

讲话酱快，又咬齿不清的~

糊里糊涂的两个人的对话><

回想起来，如果当时我真的跑到那里念书。。

跟现在的我，一定有所差别吧^^

不知道自己哪里出问题，

冒冒然的跑去申请什么奖学金~

冒冒然的跑去考试~

乱乱来的东西怎么可能这么容易得到咧？

哈哈~虽然的不到全免的~

但新加坡政府在某所学校有安排学位~

不用跟国际学生们考试抢学位~

是很不错，但是本小姐的老古董公公，

又突然反悔了，说等大一点才过去也不迟~

还说什么不如留在乡下陪他~

一天给我五毛钱的零用钱~

哇谢~~~~五毛钱只能买水果呃。。

想饿死本小姐哦？坏公公~

还记得那时告诉四个老婆的时候~

大老婆有哭，我没想到咧。。

我的脑袋瓜哦，有时候会失常。。

所以才会常常做出异常的举动~

大家见怪不怪啊，多多包涵哦^^

我们的点滴

2009-10-11T19:43:00.019+08:00

比赛前_2007 Christmas

剪发后

比赛当天

比完赛后

留头发啦~

2008年_ICC

出街天^^

AJK_2009 Kutip Derma

这些年一个人风也过雨也走

有过泪有过错还记得坚持甚么

真爱过才会懂会寂寞会回首

终有你终有梦在心中

朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有

一句话一辈子一生情一杯酒

朋友不曾孤单过一声朋友你会懂

还有伤还有痛还要走还有我

________________________________________

未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你们的手心

未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记之间的约定
我会永远在你们身边陪着你

________________________________________

对不起。。谢谢你们。。

❤MEANINGFUL❤

2009-10-04T22:15:00.014+08:00

❤XIAO T

❤SOOKJIN

❤HUIHUI

❤SHYUAN

❤AUNTIE HWA

❤I LOVE YOU ALL❤MY FRIENDS❤

Gathering Days

2009-10-04T00:31:00.006+08:00

well..i think i'm gaining weight~~

after having gathering for these two days~

yesterday was the rehearsal for state review..

and 45 of us had stood at stadium for 2 hours..

began from 2.30pm-4.30pm..

hot sun burning our epidermis and luckily none of our division faint~

there's a member fainted and laid to the front..unluckily..he broke his tooth~

huu...then we gathered at ah teh's shop lot/office~

and ate lots of bbq hot dogs and fish balls XD

included the sweet chicken wings of course~

but the funny thing is all of us need to sat at side of the road and it seemed like foreigns without passport from indonesia and thailand are having bbq party =X

erm..heard many about school ghost stories..

luckily we are not going to organize camp in school ^^

those stories really...affected our emotions~

and i even thought there will be ghost living under the longkang and staring at us when we are eating our yummy chicken wings~

haha =) i know it was a stupid thought~

thanks to keehiangchuan again~ for fetch me back..

but seriously...i was quite scared when he's driving~

kakaka~ can't let him know about it :X

and today's story..Ooi Zai's home party!!

went to 1st laopo's house and bathed at there..

after met with xiaoT and tewtew yiakai~ we went to Ooi Zai's house by laopo's mummy car~

erhemm..his house was big and everything were prepared..

well...actually it should be a celebration for the mid-autumn festival but dunno why it had transferred into a gathering and birthday celebration =P

after ate..we moved to an empty room and started to play our game..

something alike thief+police..and the most funny part is where TzeHarn have to teach LiXUan to dance with a stick^^

haha =) auntie hwa stood like a long wood without any expressions >.<

then we moved again to the backyard and started to play with those candles~

some stupid fellas did a stupid thing~ kaka^^

couldn't express it out right now =D

then the guys brought out the cakes...each of us hold a candle and sang the birthday songs in different versions^^ and all of us included OoiZai blew the candles together~

his parents were nice to us..

and then we moved again to the empty room and laid at the floor~

xiaoT's mummy drove the car to somewhere near to his house..

and then they exchanged the driver and seriously..

xiaoT's driving skills is good neh~~

haha^^ at least better than huihui's bro's one~

reached home at 12am and i'm tired~

it's time to sleep~

nitez =)

*PHOTOS WILL BE UPLOADED SOON*

❤ back ❤

2009-10-01T22:07:00.010+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze, and love is a riddle

I don't know where to go

Can't do it alone

I've tried, but i don't know why

❤

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment

I'm so scared but i don't show it

I can't figure it out

It's bringing me down

I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

yuhuu^^

renewed and upgraded my chatbox..

anyone who wanna leave comment are welcome

but please drop down ur email address..

just wanna protect my cbox from spamming by others^^

hmm...stories about these few days

still related to SJ stuff~

having dance practice with other dancers~

still rushing for proposal~

and tomorrow's activity..

preparing myself to expose to sunlight again =X

something alike marching~

with 100++ from other division..

tired-ing~

it's time to buy some whitening masks^^

i'm still loving them^^

2009-09-25T23:19:00.007+08:00

hee...everything back to normal...

after a few messages from Jia...

both of us realized something important...

the only reason that made our friendship cracked is we were too care about each other and none of us is dare to speak out the true feel...

we always thought in the wrong way and things become complicated...

both of us cried...although we were separated by distance..

stupid us...as what you told me...

we have a tough and precious friendship but we never hold it tight..

both of us are too stubborn...silly huey and jia =D

feel happy when we talked again...

and the invitation to have steamboat at her house...

five of us walked together again when we're leaving school..

i miss the moment so much...

we always did the same thing when we're training during school holiday...

but we didn't appreciate it right?

lots of argues and quarrels in these few years...

btw...luckily problems solved in quick way...

that's why our friendship can sustained for so long time =)

had a great time at Jia's house..by eating steamboat and playing monopoly XD

although we missed one of the mushroom gang...

but we received a great news..Jyee won in her volleyball match!!

Good Job 5th laopo!!! haha =P

I'm wondering did she met with any handsome?

*she told us there will be lots of hot guys Oo >.<

and the person who are spamming my cbox...

again please stop dirtying my blog...

there's no right for me to say that you are wrong..

but don't you ever try to make thing worse...

and don't do something silly at here..

you are just embarrassing yourselves so just leave..

it's better for you and me...

keep your "truth" with you cause I won't change your mind...

not even a single try...

btw...thanks again to my friends for the supports...

especially auntie hwa...

there's a post at her blog which suit enough for "mik"...

maybe i should just copy and paste it here..

after i get permission from her of course...

have a view at there and learn to respect other please...

AUNTIE HWA'S BLOG

i love my friends a lot =D

22 of September :D

2009-09-23T22:24:00.010+08:00

Yesterday was too tired after hung around with huihui for the entire day...

and the only thing i'll think about is my Ms.Bed...that's why i'm always late updating my daily diary =D

here the story began..:D

her daddy and mummy brought her to my house in the morning...

after i changed my clothes..then dear mummy

brought us to bus stop and again we need to go Ts by bus...>.<

and kindly inform you all that the rapid KL bus system was changed and the bus fee is depend on zones which already divided by the tauke~~

actually i don't think it is a better system cause you need to be patient and wait the driver for dividing the zone and counting the money~

wasting the public's time...=.=

after we reached Ts..we met with many school's friends~

SookJin Sally MeiXin at first...

then the form5 gang..and many ppl else~

hmm...i didn't spent lot of money on that day...

but both of us were so angry cause we spent Rm40 for nothing~

few strangers surrounded us and kept asking us to buy something from them..

at first..we thought it was a donation but after we wrote our names..

got limitation at below there and the minimum price is 20 bucks!!

and the stupid fella separated us and forced us to pay money...

20 bucks flew away...and what we got is...2 Christmas Greeting cards which worth not more than 5 bucks!~~

*punching my stupid brain~

WE met with sookjin again at sg.wang and while waiting for von...

we back to ts again and captured lots of pictures by using sookjin's new camera..

thanks to von's bf for brought us back to parkson..

and of course...thanks to Huihui's bro for brought me back (^w^)

it was a nice day after shop around with an old friend =D

but im also missing the moment with dear laopos...

hmm...let's concentrate on our job 1st lah!!

add oil guys =)

THE DAY WITH DEAR SISTER~~

2009-09-21T21:29:00.003+08:00

back from The Mines with dear sister...

yes..only she and me~

cute blurr mummy didn't worry at all cause she knows her two cute daughters were independent and clever enough to hang around without the accompany of elderly~ ^^

*actually I forced her to say so =P

we watched a Korean movie, Haeundae...

it's a story about mega tsunami which landed on Korean beach..

and 1 milion citizens of Haeundae is going to face death if they unable to save their own life...

it was a touch story which made both of us cried in the cinema~~ *non-stop

those main characters tried their best to save their beloved...

love between human...was stronger than anything..

some of them willing to sacrifice themselves to save others..

while some of them were selfish and concerned only with their own life...

the true side of human being...

for more information...please refer to dear sister's bloggie^^

http://miemieyeong.blogspot.com

she wrote a lot about the movie...>.<

including the introduction of those main characters~

hmm...dunno why~

tears dropped from our bladders automatically...

seriously...it's a nice movie!!

the visual and sound effects were really good~~

yiks...actually i found a pair of nice shoe~~

but there's none of my size...

dear sister was bored when she's waiting for me =D

at last i didn't bought anything and again...she felt i'm untahanable XD

and the movie affected us a lot...

suddenly our mood turned down and we decided to back home straight after we left the cinema..

no mood to shop anymore~

haiz...negative effect of the movie...T.T

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY^^

2009-09-20T22:01:00.006+08:00

20th September of each year...

it's dear cute blurr mummy's birthday =)

whoa..same day with Hari Raya Aidilfitri~

she didn't expected that..

and the worst part is she had forgotten her own birthday

till my brother wished her in the morning ><

she was shocked and

we really should admit that she's really cute and blurr^^

a simple celebration for cute mummy..

our original plan had changed a lot~

but the good news is we can save more money^^

the surprise dinner and birthday cake was spoilt..

the nice insurance agent bought a cake for her

and mummy decided to bring us to somewhere so we can celebrate her birthday =.=

in fact..she's the one who gonna pay the bill >.<

my cheezzy mushroom macaroni need to be delay till the whole family have free time to have dinner again..

waka..holi week began~

it's time for me relax and spend money on shopping again^^

gonna hang out with sister on tomorrow~

she wanna watch movie and take a view in the bookshop..

while I'm going to shop around^^

i'M the Shopaholic...=P

Happy Birthday

*to the Prettiest Woman in My World Again*

I love You mummy^^

the last day =)

2009-09-19T23:01:00.009+08:00

finally....

my working days ended with smiley=)

8 days separately during the malay's puasa period...

my dear weekends and weekdays..

contributed to Kajang Textile and Fashion~

but wanna thank huihui's mummy and daddy^^

both of them are cute and nice~

and her dear brother...KeeHiangChuan!

kakacaucau d people~

talked about nonsense more than introducing his daddy's baju~

well...i learnt quite a lot about malay's traditional fashion~

at least i knew what's the differences between baju kurung biasa and baju kurung pahang lah XD

hmm...something frustating me..

problem occured between us..

and there's a crack in our friendship...

i'm scaring...our distance will get far in future...

perhaps I think too much..or maybe it was just a wrong guess...

but dunno why...the conversation between us is getting shorter and shorter...

for now..the only thing that relating us is our job in SJ...

but what will happen if some day we have no relation with SJ anymore?

means we also gonna lose the relation between us?

i'm stressed...really very stressed...

many people who were out of situation said i had changed...

changed to someway negative...

I would like to say sorry to someone...for my bad temper...

really dunno why i'll lost control and everything just burst out like a volcano~

but seriously...non of you all can understand the way I felt...

for you all...it's my duty and my own business if i was too busy and stressed with my works and jobs...

tones of duties and responsibilities and I need to balance myself for all the time...

I am tired of pretending a fake smile and act like it's not a big deal if your guys take my words as joke and laugh happily without caring my feel...

I really dunno how to speak with your guys...

stress and pressures are pushing me to the end of corner...

I need a rest to release myself from the current situation...

just hope after the holiday...our friendship will back to normal...

i really hope so...

my tuesday story =D

2009-09-15T17:05:00.009+08:00

I'm still sicking..having flu and coughed for the entire day...

i had met with a doctor and 100% Im not affected by H1N1 lah!!

stop asking+treating me like a patient kay..

just a normal flu and it wouldn't be anything serious~

my body's antibiotic system is stronger than your guys d leh=)

but still wanna say thank for those who take care about me^^

everything is gonna be fine...

except the pimples poped out from my forehead since the last few weeks!!

there were too much and i need my fringe to hide it from the public =(

hmm...i'm lacked of sleep and worried about something since a quite long time~

caused by? stupid proposal which involved many people and difficult for me to handle!~

regreting for holding the post as secretary....

huh...all the tasks were tough and...I'm trying my best..

so don't get angry if i done my stuff slower than before k?

I'm tired+lazy and i really need a rest...than i'll back to normal^^

hmm...story about today~~our chemistry lesson!!!

spent more then 3 periods to do the experiment...but at last~ we failed T.T

well...this is the first time which 8 of us sat at the same table and did a chemistry experiment..

seriously...it was enjoyable moment cause you will saw each of us playing different kind of role and together we tried our best to complete the experiment~

I'm not really sure what they have did...

but i won't forget what's the role played by jason~

a kacau people d people~! keep on interrupted others when they were concentrating!!

and Ali baba+xiaoT...the mol decimeter per cubid calculator^^

*only Ali is calculating the lah~ xiaoT is blurr d XP

shyuan+waihon+zhichin+me...the apparatus suppliers =D

*actually we just prepared the apparatus as shown in the diagram><

siongKeat...hmm...he enjoyed his time with the sucker a lot XD

well...we didnt neutralised the indicator into green colour successfully~

but the weird thing is the whole class didnt suceed as well...

hmm...then teacher realized something~

she took the wrong hydrochloric acid!!! the concentration was too low and we need to multiple the volume of the acid by 10++ to neutralise the alkali solution~

but she was the cutest among the 3 science subject teachers...

so we wun't angry with her d...kaka^^

and there's something else about the MUSHROOM GANG that i need to post up here^^

but not now..XD im lazy again~

added 1 more thing which belong to five of us =P

thanks 3laopo yar >o<

and....it's time to continue my task...bb^^

it's Friday night^^

2009-09-11T21:11:00.008+08:00

hmm...it's friday night...

and tomorrow will be the saturday morning...

*what a stupid theory ><

haha~~

Area Meeting is helding on tomorrow...

argued with someone..

about my presence...

and it messed up my mood...

but luckily thing ended up with smile not fight^^

had a quite long meeting with ex-senior after school...

all about the preparation of division camp..

straightly went for tuition lesson by senior's hot cushion car~

it was really very hot and 1+4 laopo need to sit on their files like dumb ><

luckily my leg wasn't long so i can save myself from sitting on file and scream like a duck =)

kaka^^i prefer shorter leg XD

Wanna say thank for a few persons...

Thanks to yokekuan for her mummy's jelly mooncake...

it was so delicious but why don't you make a special one??

the Duku Langsat flavour!! haha~ Im spoiling your mummy buisness =P

and Thanks to william for lending me the Twilight dvd...

love the movie so much and i had watched it for thrice~~

the male main character was so handsome nia...

a romantic love story between human and vampire...

and im gonna catch up the next 3episodes!!

NEW MOON..ECLIPSE..BREAKING DAWN!!!

i mean the storybooks lah =D

but it will be after the final exam of course~

dying and suffering...exam again...

and our camp planning...

headache~~ it's time for me to faint...=)

2009-09-10T20:10:00.004+08:00

Don't put a fake cute face infront everybody and think you are cute.Its disgusting.

Don't think you are a baby.Needs attention and protection.If you are, go back your cradle.

Copied from JiaDar's bloggie^^

the most suit and right words for someone =)

*she's my darling laopo =D

Im Releasing My StreSs =)

2009-09-08T17:07:00.008+08:00

sorry for the late updating...
hueyhuey was busy and tired...
feel like going to burst and faint in any moment~
Im sick...for weeks...
caused by the stupid weather...

and my temper is getting worse...
hating someone who likes to act cute and innocent...
someone seems fake to me..
well...for your information~
the blog owner was famous with her kindness and if you made her hate you...100 percently sure that you are really very "untahanable"!!!
everytime i saw you~ don't know why the only feeling that i had is...wanna vomit on your face!!
it is my first experience to hate someone~~
seriously...i really never hate anyone before~
and unfortunately you are the first one =P
feel happy huh? yiks~~
fake smiles and emotions...yiee...
do you really think that you are cute enough and famous in the school?
stop progressing your stupid brain and please make yourselves clear!!
ahuh! you did this to me before and truly I hate you more than everyone and even more than Pn.Godzila Babiki!!
yupee...you are the person who wanna challenge me so don't pretend like you are weak and innocent anymore~
you are the most fake and stupid person that i had ever met!!!
only dear laopo will know who is the one i meant =D
leave me and my friends alone or else you are getting into trouble!!~~

huuhhh!!!!
haha^^ I'm Releasing My StrEss~~~ blablabla...

THINK POSITIVELY^^

2009-09-03T21:08:00.005+08:00

guys...have you ever seen someone failed in 2 or 3 subjects at the same time but didn't feel any sad at all?

hmm...maybe not...
but i surrounded by many of them~
and~ im one of them^^

ahhuh~ I got my exam result...
erm...a predictable result~~
yaya...I failed my chemistry and physics...
yes....i expected it since i put down my pen and left my chair after the exam~
but i didn't anticipated that my physics can score higher marks then XiaoT them...except Stupid Jason and ZhiChin XD
I left it blank for 3 pages and the experiment are not completed yet!!
totally different with XiaoT and Ali~~ their papers are full filled with pen inks and I thought i am the only one will fail... (with the accompany of YuShyuan of course^^)
haha^^ i score a PERFECT TEN^^
(before multiply by 2)
about JiaDar..she really did a "great" job in her physics =D
keke~both of us skipped too much Mr.Poon's lesson =)

actually..i fail my addmaths also~
luckily teacher made some mistakes so i can add more marks^^
and thanks to M.T teacher for adding 1 extra mark so i can pass my addmaths =P
yuhuu~~luckily i didn't fail my addmaths before..
still keeping better record than dear sister^^
she failed for 3 times when she was form4~
but i failed 2 science subjects at the same time...

hmm...what can i say? We were born by the same mummy and carrying the same genetics from the same daddy =)

JUST THINK IN THE POSITIVE WAY =) *wink

She's chasing something?

2009-09-02T20:17:00.010+08:00

Is she chasing something impossible?

Something may hurts her deeply?

Just let her make her own decision.

❤

She will learn to be tougher.

________________________________________

Im Tired....

2009-08-31T23:38:00.003+08:00

oh my gosh..
my leg is pain and i had suffered for days..
stands for 12 hours per day..
and...3 days...continuously~
don't have any chance to sit not even for 5minutes...
having severe fever some more...
had my "paracetamol"..something named Panadol for days and nights...
suddenly miss my Ms.BED so much :)

well..today was the big day..
our 52th national day~~ ^^
but i didn't celebrate the day XD..
because dear Ms.hueyhuey putting her head on something else =D
keke^^

tomorrow will be the school reopen day~
gonna face the reality..
yea~ im sure that it's impossible for me get Credit in a few subjects especially in addmaths..physics..and chemistry!!! yuhuu~~
lalala...luckily i have a blur cute mummy~
she won't notice anything as long as I keep on acting cute in front of her~
kaka^^ Im good~

its time to bed..
nitez friends =)

my last free holiday~~

2009-08-28T14:17:00.003+08:00

yupee..playing role as good daughter~
stayed at home after hanged out with friends for so many days XD
(just for the morning and noon =D)
dunno why...my backbones felt like cleaved by something~~
maybe caused by wrong sleeping pose =P
laid at my bed for hours~
haha..im still the lazy piggy^^

hmm...physics tuition at noon~~
too tired+lazy~
skipped the lesson =D

actually...i got my own plan^^
watch movie at MetroPlaza with friends after tuition!
G.I Joe The Rise Of Cobra!!
but no one else than me have free time to spend on watching movie...
yiks~~today is my only free day T.T
start from tomorrow i gonna busy for quite few days~
till the last day of my sweet holiday~

need to catch up on a few proposal..assignments...official letters~

all requested by "dear" pengpeng....

and it's all about St.John...

yuu...yupee~my study life always relates with St.John stuff..

but im enjoying the progress of learning and growing^^
and bad mummy is going to cancel the internet services~
start from next month...
because of the 2 sisters who are concentrating on SPM and UPSR~~

haiz....school reopen soon~
friends~~take care of yourself...
and...think positively~~
i mean.....the exam result =P

cheer up =) *wink